Ups, Downs and Rollercoaster Rides

How I cope day to day.

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My life is not perfect and I do not pretend that it is. I also don't act like I have problems worse than everybody else's. I am not writing this blog for sympathy or to tell people how to live their lives.

So I wake up in the morning and my brain starts ticking, do I feel poorly? I think anybody who has ever been seriously ill they alway expect it to come back so its natural right? ok so once I decide I'm not ill I carry on with my day.

I like to have it all planned out roughly hour to hour, which ok it isnt the most fun but having dyspraxia isn't fun, I live my whole life by a list either a written one or a mental one. I have recently been using a organiser on my phone booking everything in, it has helped a lot, I rarely forget things and I feel a lot calmer.

I generally have a panic attack most days sometimes they are minor ones about going to work or what if I have forgotten something. A few times a month I will have a major one where my heart beats fast and i feel dizzy and everything is extremely over whelming but they have calmed right down.

I work in a busy and fast paced bowling alley, I only do 2 shifts a week at the moment because I am struggling with my fitness and how long it takes me to recover after a shift. I am also a staff representative there, I have been playing a team bonding sports day, a uniform competition, a recycling routine, going to school fetes, getting involved in charities by volunteering and other little bits and pieces. It is safe to say I get stressed from work but I love it, it is a challenge and my head is filed with all this stuff I don't have space for panic attacks or to think about illness's.

I have coping routines depending on how I am feeling, writing blogs helps, sometimes I write a blog and delete it just because writing it has helped get rid of the issue. I also cook or paint or make something doing something creative always helps if I just need to chill out and be proud of something. Writing everything down like lists for everything and brainstorms of everything I need to do is great because my plans for the day, year and next 5 years are written in front of me and lastly talking to people about things on my mind, I have a few friends and If I speak to each friend about 1 thing that's bothering me then that's 4 things off my mind.

I am always trying to be positive and I think I do it well but sometimes I have really bad days like everybody does.

Do you have any suggestions to help me beat panic attacks, stop worrying about getting ill or feeling overwhelmed by life??

Becky xx