Feeling Accepted

Acceptance !

I suffer with anxiety and panic attacks and at the moment I am having a little bit of trouble dealing with them. Different things can be the trigger for example, busy places, meeting new people, stress, and groups of people. This weekend has definitely been a test haha.

First my very very loud Dad came over which doesn't ever make me anxious because I am used to him and his loudness but I also had my friend Waffle coming over for a few hours. I always get stressed meeting up with friends because I am very conscious of saying the wrong thing and upsetting people. Waffle arrived while my Mum and Dad were out shopping for a cooker. I think because it was just me and her I was instantly calmer and she knows how weird I can get so she calms me herself. As the evening went on we just had loads of fun just like we used to when we saw each other every week.

Waffle cooking risotto.

I then went to see Sam's Mum Jacy and her husband Richie. I do dread speaking to Sam's family sometimes even though they have never given me reason to. I went in and I did feel a little anxious but I gave Jacy a little present I bought her while I was shopping and sat down. I could see that Jacy was shattered so I only stayed for about ten minutes. I am so proud of myself for going on my own.

This is an old picture but I like it.

On the Saturday I went to see my Sister in law Sue for her birthday and 4/5 nieces and nephew were there. I never feel anxious around them I just want to talk to them and play games with them. My Brother Chris on the other hand can sometimes get me a little bit flustered but I think that is more to do with our relationship being a little bit rocky.

Later the day I had a meal for Sam's dad Tony's birthday he is a twin with Ade who is Married to Rose, they have a brother called Michael and a sister called Debbie who is married to Pete and they have a daughter called Georgia and not forgetting the most important person of the family Ann Sam's Nan. It was in a big restaurant and it was very busy, we arrived late which always makes me feel a little on edge. After roughly 20 minutes I had completely calmed down and was making jokes and laughing with them all.

The reason why I have told you about this is, I never really feel comfortable in my own skin but so far this weekend I truly feel accepted and loved by them all. This is a HUGE thing for me.

Let me know if you ever feel this way? 

Becky xx