Friendship!

“If you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.”  Muhammad Ali

 I have exactly 4 friends, people I can honestly call close friends. I am not going to name them but you will figure it out in my blog posts who I spend more time with. I have a big social group of friends, work friends and a few people who I will meet up with or talk to every now and again.

Before me and Sam were together and before I started work, I had loads of free time so seeing friends was never really a problem I could fit in between their lives. I would see most people on a weekly basis which was great. I loved the support and the excitement of shopping, laughing, clubbing and any of the other things we got up to.

Having a boyfriend and a social life is difficult because so many people want your attention and time. I struggled a lot at first and stopped seeing my friends as much which did cause issues and I found myself constantly apologizing or rearranging things and never having any time for myself. I still managed to see people and go clubbing for special occasions but I was more focused on my dream. My dream is to have a Husband, a baby, a lovely home that I own and be financially stable.

When I started work I had even less time to spare for my friends. I worked stupid hours so the day after my shift would be wasted with catching up on sleep and travelling 2 or more hours to and from work. It was just hard fitting everything in because I had to see my family also.

Now I have had six months now to re evaluate what I want from my friends and what I want to put into them. I want to see things in the shops and buy them knowing my friends would love them. I want to have amazing catch up lunches and friendly phone calls. I dont want to feel guilty for not seeing them or be made to feel like I have let everybody down for not attending the weekly booze up.

My 4 friends are the best, I know what is happening in their life and they know what's going on in mine. They are my priority and I will always see them before the others in my friendship group. I still appreciate everything that has happened between my past friends. I have been through so much and leant on them probably more than I should
but that shouldn't hold me down, right? 

To me friendship is loyalty, equality and understanding.

Becky xx